Main character has been angry for a long time, simmering in the background. He blames all of his problems on one person, and in a night of poor decisions fueled by alcohol, he drugs and kidnaps her. He's been brooding for hours, trying to get up the courage to get his revenge, but is also fighting the rising dread that maybe he's made a horrible mistake. He resorts to liquid courage (alcohol) to try to drown his fears.