You're a little late to a rendezvous with Julian, and he seems.....way more agitated about it that he should be.....
Contains: Yelling, Hurt/Comfort, Insecurities, Confessions
Hooray for hurt Julian! I thought he would be a nice character to experiment with stress as well as a character who bottles their emotions up, for good reasons, and them kind of taking them out on the listener and then talking about it, so hopefully that comes across! But yes, be aware that there is a part where Julian raises his voice for those who are sensitive to that!
~Audio Transcript Below~
Julian: Where have you been? I thought we were going to meet here half an hour ago?
*pause*
Nadia, eh? *under his breath* always fucking her.....
Forget it.....I think that we should reconsider our meeting.....there are some things that I have to----
*pause*
Look....I'm a very busy man and---
*a little snarky* Well....I apologize if I seem a little frazzled and rude but it makes sense considering the circumstances......
Now if you please, let me pass.....
*pause*
*slightly frantic*
What's wrong? *chuckles wrly* What's wrong? I'll tell you what's wrong!
Look, you've been ordered by Nadia to find me and bring me in so that I can be killed for what I've "allegedly" done. You're being backed by what is essentially royalty, and here I am, wondering every second if this is all some sort of elaborate ruse and at any moment guards are going to descend down upon me and I'll be taken and I'll be killed. And now, when we were supposed to have our meeting, you tell me you're late because of Nadia, so forgive me that I might be a little angry and stressed around you!
*pause*
.......Oh, oh gods, I'm.......f-fuck. I'm so sorry I---
*startled noise*
I----with----the......right.....Oh gods....I didn't......
*pause*
I......no I.....I didn't mean to----
*pause*
No....no you're right......that was......that was....incredibly cruel of me......
I....I didn't.....*sighs* There's....not really an excuse.....I...I'm sorry.....that I yelled.....I......
*pause*
Yes.....the.....the things I spoke about.....are true......there are times when.....when we're together.....that a voice in the back of my head is screaming at me that this....this.........comfort I feel when we're......together it.....it's all a lie.....and it's all going to come crashing down around me......
But there.....is another voice that......that reminds me that not everyone in the world is out to get me.....and that voice......is harder to listen to sometimes, when it feels like everything I do is actively being watched, being tested.....and at a moments notice I could be.....well........
I know my apology isn't much, and.....I don't expect you to forgive me, I---
*pause*
What?
N-No....I.....I didn't----mean to.....well that I knew how you'd react....I.......*sighs weakly* gods I'm just.......
I'm just a mess, aren't I?
I apologize.....again......
*long pause*
After everything that's happened, it's.....very hard for me to trust others........and.....you came along.....and........I....... for you and......
*softly*
I'm terrified that something is going to happen, and it'll be like someone shouting, "Haha! You thought you could have some shred of happiness in your life after what you did! You're a fool!" and then taking it all away.......
It just.....feels like I'm constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop......
*sighs*
Gods I can't imagine how stressful this is for you either.......having to work for Nadia.....having to decide whether or not been telling the truth to you this entire time.....whether or not worth risking yourself over.....it.....*sighs* gods I'm such an idiot......
*pause*
*chuckles softly* thank you for the confirmation.......
*sighs* Me yelling at you for something you really didn't have a choice in doesn't look very good on my part....to say the least.......I......can only really say that I apologize again......I don't have.....much to offer better than that......
*pause*
You're.....glad that I told you? You can't possibly----
The yelling part? T-that's all you had......problems with?
.....and the blaming you part.....right....yes......I apolo---
*clears throat* I.....well....that....might be difficult to maintain....the....not apologizing.....but I will try my best......
So.....you don't mind that I......said how I've been feeling?
*pause*
That is.....*exhales* Not what I expected......
*pause*
Well.....for so long.....anything I had to tell anyone that wasn't positive was......used against me.....so I got used to just.....bottling it up inside and dealing with it myself.....or......not dealing with it.....as you saw earlier......
I got so.....angry because.......
I told you before how much I care......and.....you've returned the sentiment.......but like I said there's this voice that screams to me that this is all too good to be true.....that I'm not deserving of someone.....like you.....and.....*sighs*
*pause*
I know....it's....not particularly healthy to keep all those feelings inside.....but you must understand.....you......have been really the only person as of late in my life that even cared to hear my side of things, who ever really cared about and....not about my work....not about what happened.......
I'm to make things right.....you must understand.....but it's......not as easy as it might sound.....there are.....so many things in the works around here that not even know what they all are and what they stand for.......
I honestly can't imagine what.....it must be like for you.....with....your memories and-----
*sighs*
......there's.....the voice is screaming now that I've ruined everything......and that the only positive thing in my life now is going to leave due to my own misgivings and my own faults......
*pause*
You know as well as I do that thinking positively is much, harder than it seems......easier said than done........
*pause*
'It doesn't mean that we shouldn't still fight for it.....'
*sighs* gods....you're right.....as always I.......
Thank you for.....for always helping me and.......for putting up with me and.....for.....caring about me......
I promise that......I will do my best to never lash out at you again.......I don't know if I can promise to do it again.....because I'm not sure that that will be true.....but what I can promise it to try with all my might to not do so because.....you mean quite a lot to me.....and I don't know what I would do if I truly hurt you.......and I don't want to lie to you either.....in this moment.....that's how I truly feel.......
*chuckles ruefully* I suppose....that is all we can ask for now......
And......thank you......for being here.......
*pause*
Well.....if you're still of a mind......I know that a certain baker has a special on bread today........
Loki of all people shows up at a dinner/cocktail party that your family forced you to attend, all because your family have connections with the Avengers or something stupid like that. More than that, the god seems to want to....talk.....to you?
Contains: Music, Comfort, Advice
This audio didn't quite end up how I imagined it when I started writing it, but I actually really like it! I like sassy Loki showing up where he's not wanted, and I feel like maybe he would relate to a listener who hates going to family functions during the holidays? Now, I wouldn't say that Loki gives the most sound advice here lol, but maybe some things that you can take to heart this Holiday season?
~Audio Transcript Below~
Loki: I wonder......why are you all huddled up here alone in the corner....when a grand spectacle of a party takes place around you.....
Well....there must be a reason....
*pause*
Well.....if you ask me, it's because this party is the last place you want to be.
And you're here without anyone else to make it at least the smallest bit more enjoyable, aren't you?
*pause*
Because you are not alone in that fact.
*pause*
Family? *scoffs* Please.....even if any of my family were left besides Thor and they were at a party I was forced to attend I would stay away from them as well......
*pause*
The reason why here?
As much as I am a man who enjoys talking about himself, that's not what we're doing here.
*sighs*
Alright, if you're so keen on knowing....I'm here because I don't like them......and I'm better than them.....and it's fun for me to remind them so.....
*pause*
Spite is a perfectly good reason for doing things.....
*sighs* Oh please.....don't act like you're better just because you don't act upon petty and spiteful feelings and thoughts. You still the thoughts and feelings......the only difference between you and I.....is that I'm allowing myself to have fun.....since there's no other way I'm going to get it here....
I told you I don't like them......do you really need me to spell it out further?
Can I tell you a secret? Nothing feels better to me, than showing up in a place where I'm not wanted.....and knocking everyone there down a peg. They're not better than me, and this helps remind them so.
*pause*
Own yourself and show those who would want you gone that they have no power over you.
You cannot live your life forever under the shadows and the ridicule of those who claim to care and love you but do not.
You will not live....
*sighs*
Have you ever heard of the phrase, "Don't let others make you feel inferior without your consent?"
Perhaps it's something that you should take to heart.
Take it from someone who was also the black sheep of their family.
*pause*
Well, my situation might have been different, but you're missing the point.
Family, regardless of blood or not, shouldn't make you feel the way that you are currently. It's unfortunate that you've allowed them to continue to treat you so poorly.
*sighs*
I know that smiting them all or enacting revenge upon them isn't an option for everyone, especially when you're a Midgardian, but you understand what I mean, yes?
I forget sometimes that there are repercussions that I can avoid that others cannot. Most cannot throw tasteful but scathing comments at family or stand up for themselves without being punished. Most wouldn't be able to survive being on their own without any aid, so I recognize my privilege there. There is something to think about however.....
You have those who enjoy your company yes, that provide relief from the world, that give you hope, that give you joy?
Then why are you not instead of here?
*pause*
As I said, here because this is fun for me, causing mischief, being a relative ass as some people call me. You're here, and it's not. I daresay that it's relative to torture for you.
You should go where you are celebrated, not where you are merely tolerated.
Even if you can't avoid parties like this, or family events, it's important to be with those who raise you up, not put you down.
*pause*
*scoffs*
I, better than anyone, know the difference. Just because your family or friends are 'Nice' as you say, doesn't mean that they're, 'Good'.
Everyone pretends during this time of year that they're wonderful, kind, gentle people who want nothing more than peace and goodwill on this Earth.
And yet, these are the people who in the same breath can cast out their families, their friends, even people they do not even know because they are percieved as different, and therefore--in their eyes--wrong.
*chuckles softly* Perhaps.....but I don't perform as much villianry as I used to. Reformed I'm told.....practically a Saint.....
*chuckles*
Well....I still the god of mischief. I wouldn't do to ruin that part of my reputation.
*pause*
Now.....I suggest, that you, at your earliest convenience, gather together with those who actually treat you well and forget this night ever happened. It'll be good for you.....
*pause*
*laughs* And who would ever believe that? A god of mischief treating you better than the hundreds of people here.....including your own family?
*pause*
*sighs* I suppose you're welcome. Now stop moping and take my advice already?
Now if you'll excuse me, I have more Midgardians to torment.......Which ones did you say were your family again?
*chuckles*
Excellent.
Soundgasm couldn't handle this amount of tagging so...
Public Play I'm talking directly to youwith a andwhen the fucking thing runs out of juicepossiblefrom over stimulation
A file meant to be listened to in public, on a bus, train or airplane- Not while driving!
I'm going to take you down, to plant and reinforce some pleasure triggers. Then I'm going to bring you back up and tease you, saying dirty things, arousing things... and your triggers.
Teasing you, playing with your mind while you can do nothing about it but helplessly listen, taunting you. Bringing you pleasure, intense pleasure- but you better not get a boner or else what will everyone think?!
I came a lot of times without permission and got caught. I promise I'm a good girl! I'll take the punishment like a good girl for you, daddy. I'm sorry I misbehaved.
Dear GWA: It's NOT stalking. I'm in love. WE are in love. We haven't had a deep conversation but trust me, I know. By the looks of his shopping cart he's not much of a cook but I am! And is it my fault that he's shy? No! So I HAVE to find his address to get to know his day to day life better.
This is love. This is not stalking. This is love.
-personal note- this is an improv ramblefap
Written by u/SelectGift
Audio and Commentary by u/MoanALissa32
INCEST TABOO: I’m On Vacation with my parents, the culmination - Final Post
I'm overseas for the holidays! You missed my call but I'm going to leave you a saucy little voicemail for you to relieve yourself to later because I'm a sweet, caring girlfriend
Part II - Still didn't prepare. I like penises way too much! Guys fapping is my new lullaby. I'm very old-school. I'm an introvert at heart. It was with a guy that I talked to on the internet-this is how it all starts! Clearly that didn't last long. I would film myself only for research purposes. I like food! My youth was way more exciting. If I hear banjos, I gotta go! I'm a giver. Yes to all of it! 2 out of 5 isn't bad! I did it.
I like what I see, my kinky little love.
You look so amazing handcuffed naked in that chair, and it looks like your cock is rock hard in anticipation of what I'm going to do to you.
You're going to love it. Oh you're going to love it so much.
Script by u/KardinalSin
Hey! What do you think you're doing in my room! I-Is that...w-what the hell do you think you're looking at! That's my porn-- err I mean, why are you looking up weird shit on my computer anyways! What!? No it's not m-mine. Look I don't know what you think you saw but it's not what you think it is okay?
No I'm not into men! With their big cocks and-- h-hey why are you getting s-so close to me. Why do you have that look in your eyes?
