By Kinkradio 160
08:42
You can't sleep, or more like, you don't want to sleep. You didn't really expect much when you went to find Muriel, but unexpectedly, he does indeed help.
Contains: Comfort, Anxiety Aide, Nightmares
Muriel! I know there were people who were looking for maybe some sleep audios, as well as some nightmare comfort, and a commission I had done in my last round was perfect! The commissioner thought that Muriel would be good at comforting a listener who has nightmares, considering he struggles with that himself, and I thought it was a nice idea! I hope you all enjoy!
~Audio Transcript Below~
Muriel: What.....what are you doing here?
Y-you.....you couldn't sleep? You.....came all the way out here because you......you couldn't sleep? I---
*clears throat* Here.....come in....I.....
I wasn't.....expecting you and--*gasps softly*
Is everything.....? No....of course not.....forgive me for even asking but.....
Do you......want me to.....do you want to.....sit? Or?
*pause*
Hold you....I can.....*clears throat* I can do that.......
*pause*
So.....will you tell me......what brought you out here? You seem.....fairly out of it.....outside of....not being able to sleep.....is it.....are you?
*pause*
.....Nightmares? You've been.....having nightmares?
*pause*
I know that......sometimes.....it feels...... to just.......stay up....trying to avoid....everything.....working yourself into a stupor or.......working yourself so hard that you simply pass out.....in order to prevent or.....escape from.....nightmares.....
I should be the last person to tell you that it isn't healthy because.....I know.....I where you're coming from......but.....it's easier to give advice than to take it, isn't it?
So...know that......you're not the only one who has nightmares.....who......is afraid to close their eyes at night......who is afraid of their past and how it will manifest for their future......you're not alone......
I know it's easy.....to focus on the bad things....especially when you're sleep deprived and it feels like everything is against you......but.....if you have someone to think about.....or someone to talk about, that makes you feel safe......then that can help.....
You.....you've helped me......when I'm....overwhelmed by......everything......I turn to.....thoughts of you......of your smile.....of your laugh.....of how you look at me and......you don't see all of my past.....or if you do.....you think that.....it doesn't matter.......it calms me.....but also reminds me that I'm not alone....that.....you're important to me.....and it....puts it into clarity how......even though I cannot change the past.......I can learn from it....and I can grow from it.....and I can...use that knowledge to....protect those who.....matter to me.......
I know it's frightening.....believe me......I understand......you won't be doing yourself any favors if you just allow yourself to.....wither away.......or to be controlled by that fear.....some days are harder than others......but....sometimes a way to get over nightmares is to confront them....to try to work out in the waking hours what they might mean.....or what they might represent.....because.....dreams are a gateway into what your mind is trying to work through.......
There was a long time where I dreamt of the arena near constantly, where I saw and relived everything I did there.....and it was....agonizing for a long while. I did everything I could to avoid having to dream, because I knew I would be right back there.....but eventually Asra......and.....you......helped me....friendship.....and......*clears throat* having good relationships that are simply positive can help keep the monsters of your dreams away, or help them seem less stark. And they can also help you work through what it is that might be bothering you.....what and where the nightmares stem from.....Sometimes.....just having an ear.....or having someone.....be there.....to help protect you from them.....even if it's just a physical presence to wake up to, to remind you that everything was a dream....and that.....in the real world....you're alright....you're still living....you're still fighting.....and......gods this....I.....I'm not too great at this.....I'm trying to be soothing but not coddling and.....
I just want you to know that.......I'm here for you.....and if you need someone to.....to talk to or to.....*softly* to hold you and talk nonsense until your mind falls away then......I will do my best to provide that.....because.....your health.....not just physically it.....it matters to me....and I want you to be as happy as possible.....because I.......care....about you.....very much.....If my presence can give you even a few hours of safety and of peace.....then I will help you......I will.....be here for you......
You're safe with me....here....now......and you don't have to worry about anything.......nothing will hurt you as long as you're in my arms......and if.....by chance....something does hurt you in your dreams.....I will be here.....when you wake up.....and I will help you.....to the best of my ability....
Go on now......of to sleep.....you're safe......you're safe.....I'm here for you.....and you're safe.......
*soft breathing*
